Yes, I hear those words often. It’s part of my job.
Suuoooo I have been struggling, for a while now, to decide whether or not to include my dance antics to this blog.
I have decided YES. It’s part of my identity. It’s actually the biggest part of my identity that I can identify with. This mom stuff is tough people and I have truly lost the “other” me in the “mom” me.
So I am going to include my dance antics withchu.
Today I spent the day filming a music video for an amazing artist, Athena Reich. She is great, she’s canadian, she’s funny and good for the soul.
The shoot was fab, the dancers were fab and all of it woke me up. I felt alive in a way I have not in a long while. I felt as if someone recognized me sans mommyness.
Mommyness is great and all, but sometimes I need the old me back. The funny me, the me that does not have to worry about hormonal 4 yr old boys, or sick days, or proper nutrition. I need the old me who drinks red bull at 5am because I have a 12 hr shoot ahead of me, or need to design a postcard for a cool show i’m producing or who can create art without censorship or Disney princess invading my mind. You know… THAT old me.
So yes I have no guilt in saying to you and anyone in the world that I enjoyed my day of dance without feeling mommyness. (did i just make that term up?)
Mom’s have it bad y’all. This guilt of being with baby all the time is brutal, it breaks you down, you can’t go running because if you do, then that will take time away from doing more for the baby….like cleaning the house or laundry or preparing the right meals. Wouldn’t baby be better if mommy were better? I think yes.
So I have decided to be better, and that is through dance.
Lily enjoys coming to my rehearsals, she loves watching my shows and watching me dance and sometimes even has notes for my dancers…they should Curtsey and turn more.
Dance is good for the soul, for the psyche , for the body and most important for my family.
So find some time in your day to be the “other’ You …when you weren’t the “mom” you. It’s important, it’s vital and it will make you healthy and happy.